Neverland

What wonderful weather. It's been raining nonstop since last night. It only just stopped now. school was cancelled, which I was immensely happy about. i still haven't finished my physics homework, despite the added holiday. But that's because the man gave us SIXTY questions. I cannot do sixty physics questions in one go, especially not at home with the rain outside. I attempted two, out of which one I didn't understand. I also ate pakoras. yum.
This rain thing is really weird for september though, and there was SO much destruction, and the streets are completely flooded. 

The weather is nice and cool right now, but i just went to take a shower, and it was SO COLD, i waited for 20 minutes for the water to warm up a bit but it never did, so i just dumped to ice cold water on my head. It was awful. My brain is now numb due to the coldness.

I also (finally) watched Bol, and I cried and i cried and I cried, and I felt really light after it ended. it was such a wonderful movie and I've been wanting to watch a crying movie for a really long time now. I love crying movies. Seriously, if you haven't seen it, you must go watch it.
It is movies like Bol and Khuda Kay Liyey that make up for the disaster that is the Pakistani film industry.


Ooh this reminds me of a forwarded text message that i had gotten:
Lollywood ending of Titanic:
Shan swims on to shore dragging Meera with one hand and the Titanic with the other.

It made me laugh.


I started writing a story on fictionpress, which was a really bad idea, because it's the only thing running through my mind right now and when i talk to people I start thinking what one of the characters would reply, or think "that sounds like something this character would say!" and i really want to write another chapter but i won't let myself because it will be bad for me, and i have four tests this week and all the uni applications to worry about. I am such a stupid.

Everything is ulta.
I thought it was the 8th, but my computer tells me it's the 13th. This means i have way fewer days than i thought to complete the forms and hand them in by the deadlines.
I also am completely bamboozled by the Common-app forms. Why does America have to make everything so difficult?

The A1s have officially infiltrated the school. Its awful cuz now there are so many people it makes it hard for anyone to even move around. They are everywhere, taking up space and clogging up arteries. I bump into a minimum of ten people a day.

I have come to the conclusion that I will never be able to drive. I had joined a driving school, where this woman would come to my house in her battered up bechara sa old car, and she would take me out in the middle of traffic and tell me to drive. I was always in the far left lane though.
I got the hang of driving in that car cuz the clutch kept getting stuck, so the car didn't stop sudden;y if i let it go to early. I tried driving in my dad's car afterwards but it kept stopping.
I'm sure i could figure out how to drive properly if i practiced, though.
but that's not the reason i won't ever be able to drive properly. the main reason is my dunderheadedness.
whenever i drive on a long stretch f road without traffic, or if i'm stuck in traffic and not moving, I eventually get bored and start looking at billboards, and eventually get lost in another imaginary world with pixies and fairies, and then suddenly the driving instructor grabs the wheel or brakes(it's a good thing she has brakes on her side of the car too ) and I remember i'm supposed to be looking at where i'm going.
My biggest fear is what would happen if i was driving at night on fourteenth august or 12th Rabi-ul-Awal, with all the lights and stuff everywhere.


My birthday is in a few days. I have no desire to turn eighteen. i love being seventeen. it's the best age ever. not that i have lived long enough to be making a fair judgement on that.
If i turn eighteen, i have to get my ID card, and i officially get my learners permit, and eventually my drivers license,  and i could buy alcoholic drinks in some countries(not that i would) and i would also be able to vote. again, not that I would, but still, the pressure's there ya know? And most importantly, if i turn 18, I'll legally be an adult.

Notice that I said "if."
I don't intend on turning 18 anytime soon. I'm going to run away to Neverland and never come back. I've already memorized the address, it's easy enough.
"Second to the right and straight on till morning."
I can't wait to meet Peter, we're gonna be best friends, and he's gonna teach me how to sword fight, too.

And best of all, I won't have to deal with this college nonsense, or the first years, or the a levels, or the SAT, or  my friends nagging me to have a birthday party when i don't want one.

So if you don't hear from me again, it's because Neverland doesn't have computers.

 I laughed about this for ages after i saw it. Whenever I would think about it i had to try to contain my giggles so people wouldn't look at me strangely. I don't know why. Maybe it's the added fact that I understand something math related that makes it so funny for me.